You are sovereign.
I used to cower in fear because the idea always brought me back to this truth: I am not in control.
I—with all my tendencies to be fearful, selfish, insecure, indecisive and the list goes on—am not in control. I did not know such was doing me more harm than good.
I remember that grand time when I thought the wheel was in my hands… until my finite mind took off its false cape and confessed, “I had miscalculations.” It was as if scales fell down from my eyes, and the wheel I thought I was so effortlessly maneuvering turned out to be nothing. I was holding on to empty space, deceived. My hands have been holding on to wind.
Then you entered the scene and greeted me like an old friend. I was not very sure if we had already met but you talked to me as if you were with me since day zero. As you sat down with me, you offered help—help that I did not know I needed. As you spoke then, yes, you were telling me about the wheel but in the same breath you were telling me something I knew my soul had been longing to hear. You were telling me about your story and telling me about mine all at the same time.
Then you took my hand, led me out of my little box and asked me to come and walk with you. Now I would not normally walk with strangers. I was so sure we had just met back then, but with you in the picture, my whole being seemed to cry out, “I am home.” It was as if I was lost all along and finally my heart could rest for finally being found.
A few years and seasons after that, here I am greeting again the same truth: you are sovereign. Honestly, there are still many times when my flesh and heart still wail at this truth, but my spirit rejoices. You are sovereign but along this line are truths I wish words could do justice.
You are sovereign and you are loving. You are good and powerful and merciful and kind. You are the perfect gentleman and lover. You are the one that my soul aches for and longs for and so much more. You love me more than I could ever love myself. I can trust you with my heart, mind and soul. I can trust you with my life.
You are sovereign, Jesus. I will forever be grateful that you are.
“I know that you can do all things; no purpose of yours can be thwarted.” (Job 42:2)